Thursday, August 21, 2008

Bloated idiot

I have learned that it's true that it takes a few days before the full effects of chemo hit you. Wed. I went in for the treatment, Thurs. I still felt pretty good (which was nice since it was my birthday. We had an impromptu dinner with some friends, a lovely sunset, a humongous chocolate cake and a nummy banana cream pie...) then Fri. hit and I felt horrible. I'm writing this almost a week later and I have successfully blocked most of it out. But I do remember at one point wondering if I really would be able to handle this. The weekend was shot, except for a nice little reality check from Rene, who helped me calm down with some reiki.

Finally felt better on Mon. I went to a yoga session for cancer patients (I really hate how that sounds!) and it was amazing. We did a lot of breathing and guided imagery and a few simple poses and stretching. I felt so nurtured. And on Tues. I went for acupuncture. I'm finally starting to do some of the things that can really help me, instead of wallowing in self-pity.

Wed. went in for part 2 of my first round of chemo. This was supposed to be a short day, but we were still there from 8:30 until 4. This time only Taxol, abdominally, and only about 1/3 dose. Last night I couldn't sleep at all, my heart was pounding and I couldn't take deep breaths because my diaphragm is super sore, probably from the huge bags of fluids getting pumped into my abdomen. I am a bloated idiot! Finally slept around 5 am, for about 3 hours. Today was a good day, but now I can feel it starting to set in. Tomorrow will be fun.

Ok, let's see who gets the bloated idiot reference!


  1. the bloated idiot reference from "The Maltese Falcoln"? ... about the 2:30 minute mark is where they say it.


  2. Yessssish. It is from the Maltese Falcon, but this being Annabelle, I'm going to bet on it being a reference to the famous Asthma-Hound Chihuahua, Ren Hoek, who channeled Peter Lorre as Joel Cairo when angered.

    What do I win?

  3. Well, I'm ashamed/proud to say that I was referencing Ren and Stimpy! I had NO idea this was from the Maltese Falcon originally!

  4. And I'm ashamed to say that, while I certainly know that both the Maltese Falcon & Ren and Stimpy are classics (of a sort, in Ren and Stimpy's case), I have never seen either and didn't get the bloated idiot reference at all.